The only difference between then and now is…I don’t comment n at times don’t connect to your thoughts..Its weird..even right now.accepting all the wrongs I have done in my life so far..the ego..it just wont take it..its really really tough…to know and forgive my own self..i am not amazed when people just write me off their life..being the other person…who had to go through the turmoil of tolerating me..
You know..he said I have some problem with self esteem…its either at the max..and then in no time it just vanishes…however I have a sense of pride in myself..that I always talk about myself n somehow or the other i end up connecting myself to every given situation in a very dramatic way..n then..the show gets over..like sam said…its like climbing a mountain only to find a suburban view! how disappointing that is..can you even imagine? M sure you can..Like the show is up..and you are at the climax…(like obviously it’s a short life..n u need more characters to play) ok..i am sure I lost you there…and then suddenly you go ‘woosh’ like you just vanish from a situation..the larger picture…its like living so many lives..so many plots…so many characters to play…all at the same….and its just one of the many strings of relations and thus various characters that you live there…
Like friends..and family…they do remain..they just don’t vanish…they don’t let you vanish…they just make sure you exist…imagine how many deaths would have one lived in a life time had there not been these relations…the people who strengthens the rope..for the walk we step on for…that’s the beauty of life…tentacles everywhere to strengthen one rope or the other…
