Random thoughts!!

Something is not going right somewhere...or is it just my fucked up mind which is trying to overwork!!! or is it simple PMS!!!!
Whatever it is..it is not a good feeling at all...the more i try to be hopeful the more as if some kinda force is trying to break me yet again...
This is the last hope i am left with..and i really dont wanna let it go..Never knew i could be such a hopeful person though!!

All i look forward to is the day when i would laugh on these very thoughts of mine..now, that can be a happy smile or just a smile after you let go of someone whom you loved the most but you knew this would happen..
I would prefer the former reason!!!! :D

Vindictive???me??!!!

oh this sweet sadist satisfaction i get when i see you cry for someone else just cause she did what you had done to me once!!! Am i acting like a bitch out here?? Who cares?? I am happy to see you in this misery ~at times~ and then again I hate her even more for bringing you to such a state of pain. I had loved you once..truely..and had this thought like every other silly girl falling head over heals..tat wont tolerate anyone hurting you.
I am what you and the many more have made out of me..yet I am myself..searching myself in the various shades of colors that you & the many more have painted me with, time and again.The true color is somewhere there but i can only feel..i cant see it anymore.

I am happy that you are sad and in misery today...its not a revenge...i never had to work for revenge..you did it to urself like the others did in their own lives..n your state just confirms my belief..."you reap is what you sow!!!"